Lots and lots.
God had spoken to my heart a few months ago while I was at work one day.
I was miserable, and feeling all the aches and pains that my job was bringing to my life.
I was in a broken place and cried out to God asking Him to deliver me from the place I was in.
I pleaded with Him, "Why do you keep me in this place?"
He spoke softly, and without hesitation I knew it was Him, "I'm waiting on you."
"What?" I thought to myself.
"Waiting on me to do what?" I asked.
He answered me immediately, "To move."
That was it.
This opened up a huge can of worms for me.
Questions began to surface in my mind.
Move where? Move how? Move when? What do I do when I get there?
I struggled with what to do and even called a close friend to pray with me to find understanding of what God was asking me to do.
I was perplexed. I felt lost.
Emotionally and physically.
I had become weak and tired.
I felt stuck where I was. Completely. Stuck.
At times, I could hear God speaking softly to me, whispering to my heart, "You are never stuck with Me. You are free."
I didn't feel free where I was. I felt trapped. In bondage.
The feelings would not leave me, and I chose to ignore Him speaking to me. My mind stayed jumbled and confused.
Then something happened which caused me to have to make a choice.
My job, or my family?
The choice was obvious.
I chose my family and decided to quit my job.
As soon as I quit, I'm talking at the very second that I quit, I felt peace like never before.
Peace rushed in like a river.
The chains of bondage were broken.
I felt free!
I felt strong!
(Have you ever been in a place like that?)
I'm so glad I listened.
Obedience has it's rewards. I am proof of that.
The days that followed my resignation have been filled with confirmations and blessings. I feel God speaking to me louder than ever before. I was in a place that had caused me to almost block His voice out. Not a good place to be at all.
Not. At. All.
It's funny how we sometimes forget what we pray and ask God for.
About a year ago, I was having a day by myself and chose to have some one on one time with God. At this time, I had begun feeling the aches and pains of my job. I had also just started my blog. It was March of 2010.